I do not wish to start an argument or step on any toes here.
I do not need to justify my joy in finding my husband that God created for me
at a ‘young’ age. But I do want to write a few thoughts out, so that I can
fully explain my reaction to the assumption that marriage is ‘settling’ and
that this ‘settling’ is a bad thing. These thoughts have been running through
my head for the past year because of various conversations.
I am a Christian. A true Jesus follower, who reads the Bible
and tries to live by it, with the help of the Holy Spirit. My Bible tells me
that marriage brings challenges. That I must not idolize my husband and that
having a husband does not change the fact that God is the number 1 priority in
my life.
I also read that my purpose in life is to glorify and serve
God. If I choose to have a husband on this earth, I must continue in my purpose
to glorify and serve God. Husbands do not change this purpose.
Tripp and I were created separately by God but with the
purpose of being united together as one with Him. I truly believe this. When we
both came to this realization (at different times might I add), we prayed
together and separately, we asked friends to pray, we discussed with our most
trusted friends and our families and we decided to become one through a God-ordained
marriage. This decision was not made lightly. We did not rush but we also knew
it was not right to wait. We both knew we were made specifically for each
other. I was made to be Tripp’s helper and Tripp was made to lead me as God
leads him. We were both made to glorify and serve God in all that we do,
including in our marriage. Why put off God’s perfect plan? We wanted to please
Him and it pleased Him to join us together as one, in the order and timing He
planned for us.
Marriage is not easy and ours is nowhere near perfect. We
are not constantly happy. But honestly, our happiness should not be the goal of
our marriage. Serving God, finding joy in all situations, glorifying God, these
are the goals of everything in life, including marriage. We don’t have
everything figured out and there are some issues we struggle with. But these
trials are filled with blessings and we both understand that our happiness is
an earthly, temporary emotion. We must instead focus on finding God’s joy and
feeling His peace in every situation.
Soon after marriage, we made the decision to buy a house.
Again, this decision was not made lightly and was not rushed. We prayed, talked
to trusted friends and family, etc. God led us to the perfect house and allowed
for the process to finish smoothly and right within our budget. That was not an
earthly phenomenon; that was God-ordained. Buying a house does not mean we can
never, ever travel anywhere ever again. Getting married does not mean we can
never, ever travel again. It just means that we have a partner to travel with and a place to call home when we are ready to rest and feel a sense of stability. Tripp and I both value a sense of stability.
I have been to various parts of Texas, Utah, Idaho,
California, Florida, Georgia, Alabama, Tennessee, and South Carolina,
Pennsylvania, New Jersey, Kentucky, and Canada. I have visited New York City, New Orleans,
Yellowstone park, Biloxi Mississippi, Chicago. I have been to Africa. Tripp has
traveled as well. God opened an opportunity for Tripp to teach in Andrews. He
opened up an opportunity for us to buy a house in Murphy. We feel a sense of
peace and belonging in this area. I feel there is a bigger purpose He is
preparing me for in this area, while I am also finding smaller ways to serve and grow right now. I want to have a family in the near future and I
want to raise them in the beautiful mountains of Western North Carolina. Of all
of the places I have visited and lived in, this is the place that feels like
home.
In all of this, my happiness is not the goal of the
decisions being made. I did not get married to be happy. I did not buy a house
to be happy. I am prayerfully making these big (and small) decisions so that
God will lead me to the places He wants me to be and to fulfill the purposes He
has for me. My life is not my own. I am God’s creation and servant. I may not
always remember this, but it is always true.
Nothing Without Him
Jenny